The Reasons... Or Excuses??

Yesterday a close friend asked, "How come you are still single all this while?"
First of all.. Do i have to like not be single? Haha... I get this questions a lot. Kinda used to it. To make matters clear. I'm not gay. No offense to those who are. I've nothing against you guys. I love women too much to turn my back.

I guess it's just me. I have a tendency to push away girls when they've start coming close. I admit. Sometimes i do lead them on. That's because i wanna give it a try as well.. But then something hit me. And i just back away. Truth to be told, i am afraid of commitment. It could be a reason that after 5 years of singlehood, i'm so used to this life. I have friends and families whom i'm close to. I dont need anybody else. Or do i?

Another reason could be the fact i set a very high standard. It's a way of protecting myself from falling in love too easily. I dont wanna end up hurting either me or the other party. And sometimes i feel you have to be cruel to be kind. I guess it's just a matter of time until the right one comes along...