What's Next?

If my eyes aren't playing tricks on me, then my 3rd time applying for the course didn't go through. This time round my hopes were a little high cause they took quite a long time to send me the letter. For the past two years, within weeks of my application i already received a letter from them stating that my application wasn't successful. This time, it was longer. They must have put in some serious thought into my application. Oh well.....

So what now? Truth to be told, i was hard hit. I took one whole day to register, and rethink of my next move. Plan B? NTU NIE? Be a PE teacher? That's the next best thing that i would want to do. But i guess, i'm going to take a year break for now. This one year i want to work. My family members have yet to know. But i'm going to tell them for sure. Just waiting for the letter. And after my contact tracing exercise. Hope they let me make my own decision. Not to mention supporting it. I'm an adult afterall. My friends did say to just apply now and not waste a year. Waste? I don't see it as a waste. I see it as an opportunity for me to get myself mentally prepared for the challenges ahead. It is, afterall going to be a life changing experience. Not to mention a life long courier.

Despite projecting my normal cheerful side on the outside, i was disappointed. With myself actually. For not able to get better results. I dug my own grave there and no one else could save me except of course myself. I shall not let this dampen my spirit. I've got to be more receptive of this change.